On hopelessness

Why I adopted ineffable faith.

I don’t consider myself to be part of any institutionalized religion. If it has words (e.g. in the form of a book) associated with it, it is not enough for me. Trying to conceptualize divinity with any word will always fail, because when something has a name, that implies distinction, while divinity is not distinct from anything.

And yet I believe.

The term that comes closest to what I believe in is “hope for unity.” Not in the sense of longing for something specifically, but instead hope for joy, hope for peace, hope that it’ll all be good.

My core approach is: I don’t allow myself to even consider hopelessness. Death is eternally peaceful and the end of all suffering, but not the solution I want to choose. Instead, I just reject the constant self-doubts, the constant questioning whether anything can change, and redirect this energy towards creative action and love.

All beliefs which are just expressed in words are hindering, because they just keep the mind occupied with those words. Blogs like this attempt to put genuine unity into words, because I personally just enjoy writing, but fundamentally it can only be felt.

On the other hand, words are an important tool for self-reflection and for communication. The primordial striving for unity and utopia is the most epic commitment to life you can make.